Don't Grow Up, It's a Trap!

My mother always told me that growing up and growing old are not the same, she told me that all the people will grow old but not necessarily grow up... And I never noticed the difference until the very first moment I noticed the very first white hair and how I thought about it.. Until the very first moment I felt that being comfortable is more important than being happy and that happiness will evo...lve out of comfort... Until the very first moment I knew that being happy and comfortable is not always enough, feeling blessed and content with what I have and what I don't is more important and this is when true happiness and comfort will evolve... Until the very first moment I realized that everything happens for a reason, the good things, the bad things and even if we don't get to understand the reasons, God will lead us to answers for all our questions when the right time comes. My mother always told me that growing old is easy, but she never told me that growing up is that hard.. Don’t grow up, it's a trap!

#عن

#عن الحاجة الوحيدة اللي بتسعدنا في حياتنا و ماعديتش موجودة و حاجات كتيرة في حياتنا موجودة بس ماعديتش بتسعدنا
  #عن ناس غلط دخلوا حياتنا في الوقت الصح
و #عن ناس صح دخلوا حياتنا في الوقت الغلط
و #عن ناس دخلوا و خرجوا عشان بس يلخبطولنا حياتنا و تفكيرنا
#عن حاجات ماتت بس هتفضل عايشه جوانا و مبتتنيسيش
#عن ناس حبناهم و محبوناش و ناس حبونا و محبناهومش
#عن فكرة الموت اللي بتوجع قلبنا علي فراق مش بمزاجنا و حاجة هتفضل طول عمرها اكبر من تفكيرنا و تخيلاتنا
#عن كلام و مواقف وجعتلنا قلبنا بس رايحتلنا بالنا
#عن دماغنا اللي وجعتنا و قلبنا المقهور من أسئلة كتير بتيجي في بالنا لما نشوف ناس كنا بنحبهم و نفسنا نعرف أيه اللي حصل و ليه
#عن كل واحد عامل بأصله و تربيته حتي لما القدامه ماكنش يستاهل

And the only constant about life is...

People change. They deny it, and ask you to understand. We think that their change what bothers us, yet it was never the change that bothers us since the only constant about life is the change. Its them acting as if nothing changed is what bothers us. Its them acting as if nothing happened is what bothers us. Its them acting as if it was all in our heads is what bothers us. They were not brave enough to pursue it further is what bothers us. They are not brave enough to admit it is what bothers us. They will not be brave enough to face it is what bothers us. So it was never about the change, it was all about ignoring that we actually changed and avoiding the reasons why we did #nwtfy

Friends Becoming Strangers!

Its funny how fast we become friends with strangers, and then we call them close and then we become strangers again! And it was never becoming strangers that annoys us. It was calling them close without actually being close that annoys us. It was all about the good things we did knowing that they might not deserve, wishing they would and we still do it will all the love in the world. It was all about the time and effort exerted to make them happy knowing that they might not share their happiness with us, wishing they would and still we exert it with all the love in the world. It was all about the thoughts we have and the expectations we have set without thinking that they might not be up to them, wishing they would and still we did it with all the love in the world. It was always about calling them close and knowing deep inside they are not wishing they were, that hurt us #nwtfy

The Little Things That Never Mattered!

Its funny how we do the little things knowing they won't matter, wishing they would and we still do them. And its was never doing them that hurt us. It was putting all the love in the world into the little things and finding out that it never really mattered what hurts. It was putting all the sincerity we have into the fine details and finding out that it never really mattered what hurts. It was looking for a smile on their face when you do the little things for them and not even waiting for a thank you that was never said and finding out it never really mattered what hurts. And it was never doing the little things that really hurts because we were happy doing it and we were willing to do more, it was always about doing the right things for the wrong people, finding out that they didn't deserve, wishing they did, that hurts #nwtfy

Reasons Behind Our Sadness!

Its funny that we still feel sad even after knowing all the differences, setting all the possibilities and talking all the could have beens !Its sad because while looking back at everything we have done with all the love, we have found that we are ready to make them over and over again putting more love into them! Its sad because we also have done things that are so not us and we cannot undone or forget that we have done them. Its sad because we had thoughts and dreams that made us happy and we still have more thoughts and dreams that we shouldn't have! Its sad because we still care even though they don't need or even care about it and we cannot stop it. Its sad because they started avoiding us and even worse neglecting us. Its sad because we have broken some walls for them that we cannot build them again. Its sad because we have given the time some time wishing things would get better, finding them getting worse ! And it wasn't only sad because we have seen the truth and we neglected it , but because we still have had hope that things might change knowing the fact they wouldn't ! #nwtfy

Everything Happens for A Reason

Sometimes it is better to get heart broken than feeling cold because you know that you are still able to love. Sometimes it is okay to meet people who will break all our walls without getting in and that will help other people, right people to get in. Sometimes it is better to meet wrong people so that we appreciate the right people when we meet them. Sometimes it is better not to ask questions, better not to understand, better not ask why, how and what and better not know because most of the times answers hurt, truth hurts and findings hurt. And most of these times, everything happens for a reason and we will never know why it happened until it is the right time to know :) #nwtfy

and if you have little, give of your heart..

They say "If you have much, give of your wealth. If you have little, give of your heart" and I say giving of your wealth is an easy thing, giving of your heart shall always be the hardest! And it is the hardest because you shall always remember how you felt and how you made them feel ! Still, give of your heart regardless of anything and do it with all the sincerity that you have and that's how you will always be remembered! Having a giving heart is not an easy thing so please take care of it ! #nwtfy

And everyday life gets harder..

Nobody told me that growing old is that hard ! And its not only hard because of having hard to understand people instead of having the most complicated Mathematical problem to understand. Its not only hard because of having broken hearts instead of having broken toys. Its not only hard because of losing hopes, dreams and people instead of losing toys and grades. Its not only hard because of having to go back and forth before saying anything instead of saying what comes to our minds like when we were young and no one could blame us because we were kids !Its not only hard because we have to wear our smile all the time instead of crying if we want to because we can't do that as grown ups. And it is not only about growing old, its also about growing up -unwillingly- because life has been giving us lessons that we sometimes understand and that's what we call happy times and sometimes we don't and that what we call experience. God give us the power and serenity to grow up and old in one piece ! #nwtfy

This goes to..

This goes to someone who supports other people while they need the support more than ever. This goes to someone who gives out the best advice while they need to listen to them the most. This goes to someone who pushes people away while they need them around to help them. This goes to someone who used their energy in building walls and walls around them while they need to break them all. This goes to someone who seems tough and strong while they are the weakest. This goes to someone who seems rough while they are fragile. This goes to someone who pushed loved people away while they need them most. This goes to someone who seemed the happiest while they are the saddest. This goes to someone whom I silently watched them helplessly drowning into another one they never wanted to become!

I Believe..

I believe in Black and White, but I need to see other shades too. I believe in right and wrong, but I need to understand excuses too. I believe in straight forwardness but I need to check other routes too. I believe in signs, but I need to understand the logic behind too. I believe in strength, but I need to understand that sometimes it is okay to be weak. I believe in trust, but I need to trust the right people. I believe in giving, but I need to balance when I don't receive. I believe in change and ironically I am sure that it is the only constant about life. I believe that all the things I believe in might let me down and that the only belief I am certain about is my believe in God and that's the most important because that's the only belief that will never let me down #nwtfy

Please Don't Lose Your Humanity!

Life is too short. In fact too short to be wasted on things that are not meaningful for you ! We waste our lives thinking too much about how people will think about us, what will they say if we do or that to end up not only wasting our lives but also wasting chances. We spend our lives working very hard and too much to earn money and secure things that lack the real meaning of security and we end up not only wasting our lives but wasting our peace of mind, health and money too! We became too fast to notice others, how they feel regarding what we say, are we taking care of our loved ones or not are we giving and taking or not and most importantly giving our families their quality time and effort and unfortunately we end up alone, far from people and we lost our sincerity !! Life is too short to be wasted so please make sure that your loved ones know you do, make sure you are not wasting chances, make sure you are doing something you love and if not try to love it and please don't lose your humanity in life fast pace !

And We Will Never Know..

And we will never understand, until we know what went wrong.

And we will never know what went wrong, until we acknowlegde it.

And we will never acknowledge it,until we beat our fear of knowing the truth.

And we will never beat our fear, until we face what hurts us.

And we will never know if it will stop hurting us, until we decide to move on.

And we will never know if we really moved on, until we embrace new better things.

And we will never know what we fear, until we decide to face it.

And we will never know what we had, until we lose it.

And we will never know what we lost, until we miss it.

And we will never miss it, until we know its importance.

And we will never know, until we decide to know !

And we will never decide, until it hurts us and we cannot breath anymore, think anymore, love anymore, give anymore, take anymore, shine bright anymore and most importantly being a person we don't like anymore because we became the person that we don't want to become!