When everything becomes awkward !

Sometimes when things change and go wrong, our minds refuse to believe it and our hearts hope that its not true. We start acting normal hoping that it’s only in our heads.. Yet everything feels different! And even worse, it feels awkward.. You can feel the awkwardness even in things that would normally seem okay. And the silence becomes awkward, the talks become awkawrd and what seemed music to your ears became the source of your heartache..And awkwardness becomes the only normal.. You start avoiding eachother, and every sweet thing that used to remind us of them became something bitter..Things really changed and all our thoughts, actions and most importantly feelings will depend on our ability to understand and accept the change . we act like we understand or whats even worse pretend that we do because we can’t understand anymore! And we act like we feel normal or whats even worse pretend that we do because we can’t feel like it anymore! And we act like we listen or whats even worse pretend we do because we can’t listen anymore! And it's only about asking questions, pretending that we have found the answers and wishing that things will change one day!

Thank You ..

For people who color the world with their feelings. For people who fill the world with their smiles even when they pretend to. For people who don’t learn the easy way and have to do great mistakes to learn their lesson. For all the mistakes they had done and they are still willing to do them again for how they felt while they were doing them. For people who listen or pretend they are listening even when they were not able to. For people who don’t regret making other people happy even if it was not appreciated. For people who have done things that lost their meaning and most importantly the intention behind them and they didn’t give up doing them. And for people who lost track of their dreams and thoughts and they didn’t lose hope. For the extreme people. For the supportive people. For the complicated people. For the thoughtful people. For the considerate people.For people who find their happiness in little things. For people who make other people happy. For people who do one act of kindness everyday..Thank you for keeping the human inside of you alive.

This goes to someone beautiful ..

This goes to every person who blamed themselves for things that went wrong.. This goes to the same person who has never seen the complete picture, because if they did, they would have known that they are only part of the equation and the blame is not only theirs.. This goes to every person who asked themselves "why this happened?" And "why me?" ... This goes to the same person who never wanted to believe that everything happens for a reason , because if they did, they would have stopped asking questions and waited for answers in the right time... This goes to every person who loved someone,had their heart broken or even broke someone's heart and everything went down the drain.. This goes to the same person, who will only believe that if it was meant to be it would have found a way and will thank God for that until they meet the right person... This goes to someone who keeps reading the last chapter of their life over and over again.. This goes to the same person who will get a new life and a better one only if they decided to close the book, get The learning and move on.. This goes to someone who felt sad because someone gave up on them.. This goes to the same person who will feel sorry for them because they gave up on the person who will never have given upon them.. This goes to every person who over thinks and depressed.. This goes to a beautiful person, who needs to select their thoughts because if they do, someday they will believe that they mean the world for someone and they will only know whenever the time is right.. PS: this goes to a very special friend, I love you!

When everything becomes in the past..

Please note that all persons entering a heart do so at their own risk. Please take care of your belongings and don't let anyone in because one day you realise that there are some people you'll never see again. At least not in the same way..
And it all starts with someone you meet, someone that was never in your head, someone who became the only one because they decided to and they became stranger because they also decided to..
And it all ends when that person you "know" becomes the person you "knew" .. when all what you "want" becomes all what you "wanted",  when all the "actions" become just "words", when all your "dreams" become "memories", when all your "conversations" become "thoughts in your head" and when the places you "always go" to become the places you "never" want to go to again. And then you get a broken heart..
So I really hope you take good care of your heart..

Wake Up Call

So the first white hair strikes me, an accident for a dear friend strikes me, the sudden death of my friend strikes me , the sickness of a close family member strikes me and every down we had as a family strikes me and it was all about being struck without acting differently, without waking up ! We all have priorities , different ones , wrong ones, right ones , priorities that need to be prioritized in different manner, all we need is to wake up before a big huge thing strikes us! Set your priorities the way that makes you and people important to you peaceful and happy :)

And if they would, they could ..

Sometimes when things go wrong and we hope that they would go on the right track again, we wish if things went differently, if we have done other things, if we have said wiser things, if we have thought of things and approached them in a different manner in an attempt to fix them. And never the less we try to invest more time in changing things, ignoring the fact that if they really wanted to excu...se us, if they really wanted us in their lives, if they really wanted to invest time and effort in changing what went wrong, they wouldn't have given us the what's if and could haves. They would have tried help us fix things without even make us feel that things went wrong. They would have invested effort in making us comfortable in our most disturbing condition! So don't invest effort and time, don't waste your happiness and mental peace with people who are not willing to do the same for you.. Because if everyone would, they could and just because they wouldn't then they couldn't :)

The Missing Piece Meets The Big O

Inspired by "The Missing Piece Meets The Big O"

Sometimes we seek other people to find love ignoring that we have within us more love then we could find in anyone or even anyone could ever understand..
Sometimes we seek love to find what we want, lack or even miss by finding it in other people ignoring that if we looked inside ourselves, everything we wanted, everything we lacked and everything we missed is inside us but we are not looking closely. They will only come out if we let them...
Sometimes we love the people expecting them to change ignoring that if we love them without expectations, calculations, negotiations and accepting them as they are that's heaven..
Sometimes we wait for someone to come along and take us to places we have never been to, or even help us change. Some other times we wait for them to break our walls, ignoring that we are the ones who allow them and if we cannot do it on our own, no one else will be able to do it..
Sometimes we meet people that we are willing to always give to them without taking back and we keep thinking about excuses for them, maybe they never learnt to give back or whats even worse that they dont need what we are giving and we need to stop giving.
Sometimes we meet other people that are willing to go the extra mile for us and give us more than they take from us and still we cant do anything differently.
Sometimes we meet the right people, people who complete us, the perfect match and best fit but it is never the right time and they were never meant to be.
Sometimes we love the wrong people, people who are totally different and were never matching, we always knew it and we couldnt do anything to change it and we will thank God that it was never meant to be.
Sometimes we love the wrong people in the right time or even love the right people in the wrong time and at the end it doesn't matter because it was never meant to be.
Sometimes we will always meet people who will teach us something new everytime, and we will learn from them the hard way or even the easy way and if we don't get the lesson the easy way, we might take the lesson again..
Sometimes it will mean to be and sometimes it will not and we shall always remember that we have within us more love than we could ever understand..

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Every Time Our Heart Breaks..

They once said "You have to keep breaking your hear until it opens" and they also said " Your task is not seek love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it" and I say that breaking your heart will always open your eyes to other things, good things and deep things you have never known they existed before in you..
Breaking your heart and understanding the reasons behind it open your eyes to see the barriers. Sometimes those barriers are coming from within us, they might be our complications, insecurities or even our fear of commitment.. Some other times those barriers are not us, it is other people that we cannot have them in our lives and by breaking our heart we understand that we cannot have them or have people who are like them in our lives again because it shall break our hearts again..
Every time our heart breaks  and we manage to heal it, is a time where we have broken a wall that was already built in.. Every time our heart breaks and we manage to stand up again and move on, is a time where we move towards crossing all barriers.. Every time our heart breaks is a lesson that we need to learn.. And every time our heart breaks it breaks for a reason that we might not understand now, but for sure it's God's plan... May you never get a broken heart :)

Dont Give Up !

Nothing is worse than giving up on your dreams .. Giving up on your dreams is like losing that part of your heart, that part that loved the dream and got attached to it.
Giving up on your dreams is like losing that part of your soul, that part that visualized your dream, that part of you that actually lived the dream and saw it happening, even if it is all in your head..
Giving up on your dream is like wasting your energy in thoughts that you didn't exert enough efforts to pursue them further..
Giving up on your dreams is an extreme act of weakness.. If you want them to happen chase them..I really wish you never feel how it feels to give up on your dreams!!

#عن ...

#عن ناس كنت بتكلم معاهم في كل حاجة من غير ماتفكر و دلوقتي بتفكر قبل حتي ما تروح تكلم معاهم !!

#عن message كل ما تيجي تبعتها تفكر الف مرة و في الاخر تمسحها !

#عن كل مرة كان نفسنا نقول او نعمل حاجة جه وقتها بس ماكنش عندنا الشجاعة و لما جات الشجاعة كان راح وقتها ..

#عن كل مره قلت مش وقته ، لحد ما فات وقته ..

#عن ناس كنا بنتلكك عشان تجمعنا بيهم الصدف و لو قابلناهم صدفة دلوقتي قلبنا بيوجعنا !

#عن احلامي اللي شوفتها بتتبخر قدامي واحد ورا التاني !

#عن نصيحة اديتها لحد و كان نفسك تعمل بيها بس الكلام دايما اسهل من العمايل !

 

 

Only in my head..

And when I thought that giving the time some time is the right thing to do, it turned to be the worst thing I did.. And when I thought that I have found all the answers to my questions, questions changed and the answers remained unknown..And When I thought that the time is not right to find answers to all questions in my head, the right time slipped and it never came back again.. And when I thought that hanging on will take me to the right place, letting go was even closer to the right place. ..And then all the thoughts became only thoughts in my head..

I learnt...

It took me couple of ups and downs, heartbreaks, depression and happiness to learn In few years that everything we want to happen will happen only if you decided you want it enough and exerted enough effort to earn it, and there is no exerted effort that is wasted as long as you really wanted the thing and still after all of that sometimes one thing goes wrong and everything you want becomes everything you wanted. You shouldn't worry about that because it was never meant to be, and if it was yours you would have gotten it.. I also learnt that we only come to love people when we absolutely know everything about them and most importantly we accept and understand our differences. Understand that our differences are what make us perfect for each other.. The moment we want to change them is the moment you know you really don't love who they are, you love who they will become and that's fake conditional love .. I learnt that we come to happiness by forgiveness.. If we forgive others but always remember the lesson, if we stop blaming ourselves for taking the wrong decisions, making the wrong moves, saying the wrong things, forgive ourselves and others, learn and move forward, we will be content and happy. I learnt that everything will seem fine in your head if you never looked outside of it.. You will only hear, see and feel what you have in your head and that might not be very well perceived by others, you have to get outside of you. Its not you and only you, its you and the outer world. I have learnt a lot of things and still there are a lot more to learn and I wish not to learn them all the hard way :) #nwtfy

Here comes the point..

Here comes the point where taking a decision is the only decision you have to take and standing in the middle is not an option anymore..
Here comes the point where turning the page will not help, and closing the book is becoming the only option..
Here comes the point where letting go is becoming harder than holding on..
Here comes the point where letting go needs more strength than anything else in the world..
Here comes the point where a broken heart is becoming the reason behind all the points :)