I break down and cry ..

That's a 10 years old piece that I wrote in 2003 ! When I remember the tears I’ve cried, And the memories that have died, I break down and cry… When I remember my heartache, And the love which was a great mistake, I break down and cry… When I remember your name, engraved in my heart, And my little wishes to never get apart, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was forgotten,And my memory turned to be rotten, I break down and cry… When I remember losing my happiness and smiles, And you paving the way to them with miles, I break down and cry… When I remember the ugly truth that was so clear, And my dreadful pain, which was sever, I break down and cry… When I remember I needed no gesture, no sigh And the truth did appear as the time elapsed by, I break down and cry… When I remember losing my innocence and my purity, And you never had the feeling of shame or guilty, I break down and cry… When I remember the fake, untrue feelings, And the words that totally lost their meanings, I break down and cry… When I remember the promises that have been promised, And the every good thing that you’ve missed, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was ready to compromise, And that you’ve been acting like a devil in disguise, I break down and cry… When I remember the way u wanted to hold me tight, And the way you acted, while am out of your sight, I break down and cry… When I remember the one, who was nice, And tried to melt my heart which was made of ice, I break down and cry… When I remember your touch, your look, And the first of everything you took, I break down and cry… When I remember that you were everything in my life, And your voice saying I am your all, your wife, I break down and cry… When I remember that all those things were deception, And you’ve been trying to deceive me in perfection, I break down and cry… When I remember the amends you used to make, And the love passion and feelings you used to fake, I break down and cry… When I remember the things you’ve done for my sake, And my heart which you tried in everyway to break, I break down and cry… When I remember the hurting words you’ve said, And making me feel like I’m dead, I break down and cry… When I remember your soul uniting with mine, And leaving in morning as the sun did shine, I break down and cry… When I remember all the bad things that you made, And the ugly memories which doesn't want to fade, I break down and cry… When I remember the weird reasons you used to tell, And trying in every possible way sending me to hell, I break down and cry… When I remember how fast u did let go of me, And the ugly evidence you’ve been helping me to see I break down and cry… When I remember your unfaithfulness and ingratitude, And your strange and elusive attitude, I break down and cry… When I remember that you’ve betrayed me in every way, And the sleepless nights you’ve helped me to stay, I break down and cry… When I remember that you’ve turned me into wreck, And made everything in my life do suck, I break down and cry… When I remember my agony and my depression, And the great, unbearable and unforgettable lesson, I break down and cry… When I remember how you did capture my heart, And that you were fooling and deceiving me from the start, I break down and cry… When I remember the memories you’ve buried and revive, And trying to make me never feel alive, I break down and cry… When I remember your love that doesn’t want to fade away, And you acting with me as if I am a prey, I break down and cry… When I remember the insincere feeling you had, And the endure treatment that turned me sad, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was ready to cope with all this, And thinking of your love as a great bliss, I break down and cry…. When I remember that you used to think of my love, And the things I’ve done for you as a gift from above, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was too possessive, And you were too submissive, I break down and cry… When I remember that to me u were priority one, And to you I was kind of a game just for fun, I break down and cry… When I remember that to me you were priceless, And to you I was something worthless, I break down and cry… When I remember how we used to stick together, And thought that our love is going to stay forever, I break down and cry… But now I discovered that no use for me to cry, After realizing that your love is an empty meaningless LIE

Perceptions..

They say that happiness is a state of mind, and that every bad thought we had, could have been replaced by a happy one instead. They say that everything we want to happen will only happen if we decide we want it enough. They also say we perceive anything the way we want to and this could be reflected on every good thing we thought it was bad, or every bad thing we thought it was good. And Every time we look at a light hair we have, we can think it’s a yellow one or a white one depending on our state of mind and how we want to see it. Every time we had a broken heart, we can think that death already came and got us or think it was the best experience depending on our state of mind and how we want to think about it. Every time a loved one leaves us, we can think it is time to learn that tomorrow might never come and we need to exert time and effort showing them how much we love them before they leave, or we can sink into depression and get stuck into the past and never move on. Every time we say the wrong things, we can think it is the end of world, set the whole "what if" scenario, or decide to learn from our mistakes and never look back again. Every time we decide to move on and fail, we can think we failed because we don’t have the energy to move on and we are waiting for someone to help us, or believe that we might need to put more effort into moving on so that we eventually can and really do. Every time we wait for someone to come a long and change all the things we want to change, we can really believe that this someone will help us change and sit still or we believe that we are strong enough to embrace the change we want to see and change it on our own and then we turn to be the change we want to see in the world! It all depends on our state of mind..May we always have a positive state of mind..

Get out of your comfort zone!

Every time we lose something we really loved or we really wanted, we think that the world has ended, meanwhile a new world has started with new meanings and definitions.. Meanings and definitions that we never thought they existed at the first place and it is only because we are getting out of our comfort zone! We will only get to grow up and discover who we are when we get out of our comfort zone and experience other things, bad things, interesting things, happy things, sad things and most importantly new things so that we can get a learning out of each and every thing! And when we get the learning, we have to be sure that this is the plan for us, even if we don't like it, even if we are not convinced, even if we are not happy about it, but definitely there is a wisdom that we cannot comprehend in the meantime and most importantly there is a reason for us to get out of our comfort zone and experience the other world. We need to move on. While moving on we will be impressed to discover the other side of us. A side that we never knew it existed. One way or another we will find strength in our weaknesses, happiness in our sadness, simplicity in our complications, fragility in our toughness, kindness in our wickedness and most importantly Love in our hatred. And all the faces we have been wearing in and out of our comfort zone, soon will melt with the real us and we will find a definition for who we are! We will no more suffer to wear a different mask every time we get out of our comfort zone, or even suffer from wearing our real masks and we shall always remind our hearts that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. I hope we don’t lose our identity in our journey to find our comfort zone! PS: there is one statement copied from Paulo Coelho

عشان احنا في الاخر بني ادمين...

#عن كل مرة قلنا اشمعنا احنا.. و#عن كل مرة قلنا ليه مش أنا.. #عن كل مرة كان نفسنا في حاجة وماحصلتش.. و#عن كل حاجة حاصليتلناومكنش بالضرورة نفسنا فيها.. #عن درس مافهمناهوش وعمرنا معرفنا نحفظه وافتكرناه أصعب درس في حياتنا.. و#عن درس حفظناه وعلم فيناوعمرنا مانسيناه وبجد طلع هو ده الدرس الأصعب.. #عن كل حاجة حلوة أو وحشة حصليتلنا ونسينا نشكر ربنا عليها.. و#عن كل حاجة حلوة أو وحشة حاصليتلناو حمدنا ربنا ألف مرة عليها.. #عن حاجة كرهناها وهي خير لينا.. و#عن حاجة حبناها وهي مكنتش خير لينا.. #عن حاجات بتحصلنا عمرنا ماهنفهم بتحصل ليه.. و#عن حاجات حصلت مع مرور الوقت بنتأكد إن ربناكبير قوي علينا.. #عن ال 24 قيراط اللي ربنا مقسمهم بعدله علينا.. و#عن كل مرة اعتراضنا على التقسيمة دي عشان احنا في الاخر بني ادمين...

The Curse..

The curse of falling in love with someone who's not right, The curse that changes love, from romance to a deadly fight, The curse that slices the heart, and breaks it into pieces, The curse that makes lies and deception its thesis, he curse that hides the truth and manipulates the brain, The curse that makes you lose while you think you gain, The curse that makes you dream every night of its magic, The curse that makes you think without using any logic, The curse that makes you happy and fills your eyes with tears, The curse that makes you safe while surrounding you with fears, The curse that let you do many things that are not smart, The curse that makes you think that the end is only a new start, The curse that can destroy a life with a simple smile, The curse that can with looks put your heart on a trial, The curse that makes you see all the black as white, The curse that makes you scream at the middle of the night, The curse that can kill, bury and revive, The curse that makes you live without a sensible drive, The curse that makes you say things you don’t mean, The curse that puts pressure on you till you lean, The curse that makes you feel like you have disease you cant treat, The curse that put you in challenges you know you cant meet, The curse that controls you no matter how you try, The curse that you cannot control its power to fight or even cry, The curse that makes you patient and teaches you to wait, The curse that you discover when its only too late.

We only come to love a person..

We only come to love a person, when love, trust and respect are the foundations for this relation and when kindness, care and sincerity are the languages spoken.. We only come to love a person by knowing their complications, sophistications and most importantly knowing how to handle them.. We only come to love a person by acknowledging our differences and most importantly understand them.. We only come to love a person by sitting together silently and still be able to enjoy the silence.. We only come to love a person by knowing that we can still look at them with all the love in the world even when they are at their worst.. We only come to love a person when we are able to accept instead of expect.. We only come to love a person, when we give to them without any expectations and find them giving to us the the best which is feeling appreciated.. We only come to love a person when we wake up knowing that they are the only person we want them for the rest of our lives..