Take your heart and run ..

And when you fail to know where you stand for them, take your heart and leave .. Standing there will only break your heart .. And mending your heart is not an easy thing, it will take more time than you think , even more than the time you took standing there figuring out the situation... Trust me, it is not worth it, No one is worth breaking your heart, and if they are worth it, they will not leave you wonder..So please, Take your heart and run ..

في حياتنا ...

في حياتنا في ناس بتيجي و ناس بتروح و ناس بتفضل و كله مش بمزاجنا بس نصيبنا .. في حياتنا ناس بتدخل واحدة واحدة و تبعد واحدة واحدة و ناس بتدخل بسرعة و تخرج بسرعةو ناس بتدخل فجأة و تطلع عاملة دوشة.. في حياتنا ناس مهمين لينا و أحنا مش مهمين ليهم و ناس مش مهمين لينا و أحنا مهمين ليهم... في حياتنا في حد هو كل حد بالنسبة لينا و احنا أي حد بالنسبة ليهم و برضه في حد احنا بالنسبة له كل حد و هو زيه زي أي حد لينا.. في حياتنا في حد مش هنشوفوا بنفس الطريقة اللي اول مرة شوفنها بيها.. في حياتنا ناس نفسنا يرجعوا حياتنا و ناس نفسنا نفضل في حياتهم و ناس خايفيين يخلونا في حياتهم و ناس خايفين نخليهم في حياتنا و عقبال ما بناخد قرار بيكون الوقت فات ! في حياتنا في ناس هتخذلنا من غير متقصد و في حاجة هتتكسر من غير منقصد و حاجة هتفضل بايظة علي طول.. في حياتنا هنقول حاجات منقصدهاش و هنخبي حاجات نفسنا نقولها و بين ده و ده حاجات كتير هتضيع.. في حياتنا هنعمل حاجات لناس متستهلش و نقول حاجات معناها كبيرعليهم و متتفهمش و الاوحش اننا في الاخر مبنتقدرش.. في حياتنا هنقابل ناس الدنيا هتكتب علينا نبعد عنهم و ننساهم لكن هيفضلوا جوانا .. في حياتنا حد هيدخل حياتنا و يلمس حاجة عمر ما حد غيره يعرف يلمسها و يخدها معه و هو ماشي.. في حياتنا حد هيدخل و لما يخرج حياتنا مش هترجع زي الاول. .

The Fear You Won't Fall ..

And it all starts by meeting a person. A person that you choose to believe that you will never fall for because they are not your type and you will never be on the same page.. Or you choose to convince yourself that you will never be on the same page.. And then you get to know them.. the more you know them, the more you choose to convince yourself that you will not fall for them.. And every step you get closer, you are not only closer to them, you are closer to fall.. the closer you get, the more you convince yourself you won't fall.. And every step you think you took back is a step that gets you closer and brings a lot of fear! And you start ticking boxes in your head .. And then you start neglecting your mind and start crossing lines in your heart..And you start falling.. And you enjoy it.. And then your fear wins again.. So you stop crossing lines in your heart and start ticking boxes in your head..Because your fear of falling, your fear of suffering and your selfishness became bigger than your courage to fall and be with this person.. And after ticking all the boxes in your head, you start crossing all the lines in your heart again because you no longer think about the fear you won't fall.. And it becomes too late, because every time you have let them down was a time that pushed them further.. And every time you ignored them was a time they shed a tear, and every time they were disappointed is a time that made them untick a box in their head ... If you fall for someone let them know because who knows if tomorrow never comes!! PS: the title is the name of my fav song Youtube Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LIvU1ETg7H8

And this was worth the try..

You may be truthful and sincere to people who don't deserve but the most important thing that you were truthful and sincere to yourself in the first place, and this was worth the try.. You may show your other side, hidden side, fragile side, the side you would never want to reveal, to people who wouldn't understand but the most important thing that you knew you can, and this was worth the try.. You may do the right thing with the wrong people, or do the wrong thing with the right people, but the most important thing that you will think before doing it next time, and this was worth the try.. You may break your heart so many times before it turns to stone and you may break it so many times before it opens, but the most important thing that you will decide what you want, and this was worth the try.. Hearts may be invaded for the wrong reasons by the wrong people, but the most important thing you will know that your heart is precious and next time you will not allow the wrong people in, and this was worth the try.. You may learn the hard way, or learn the easy way, but the most important thing that you will learn, and that was worth the try!

كام سؤال ..

كام قلب فتح بابه و دخل الحد الغلط؟ و كام قلب اتكسر من دخلتهم دي؟ و كام حد كان عنده الشجاعة انه يخرجهم زي مدخلهم؟ و كام حد حاول يخرجهم مستنيهم يمسكوا فيه و يثبتوا العكس؟ و كام واحد بني حوالين نفسه اسوار مش بيسمح لحد يعديها و متخيل ان ده الامان ؟ و كام واحد اسواره اتكسرت، لا عرف يحافط عليها و لا عرف يرجع زي الاول ؟ و كام واحد خاف يحب تاني عشان اتعلم الدرس الغلط في الوقت الصح؟ و كام واحد خاف يحب تاني عشان خايف علي قلبه من الناس الصح اللي ممكن تطلع غلط؟ و كام واحد حب مهمهوش عشان اتعلم الدرس صح و اختار صح؟ طيب و كام واحد فتح قلبه لناس خبطتت و جريت ؟. و كام واحد فتح قلبه لناس خبطتت و مكانتش جاهزة ؟ و كام واحد فضل قافل مفتحش عشان خوفه كان اكبر منه؟ و كام واحد لما خاف بوظ كل حاجة ؟ و كام واحد قلبه اتكسر و مخدش باله ان في حاجات لما بتتكسر مبتتصلحش و لما بتتصلح مبترجعش زي الاول و لو رجعت يفضل الكسر معلم فيها؟ حاسب تكسر حاجة منتاش اد انك تخسرها او اكبر من انك تعرف تصلحها ...

اسئلة وجودية ..

دماغي مليناه اسئلة ملهاش اجابات و من كتر الاسئلة حاسة ان دماغي شبه ميدان طلعت حرب وقت الذروة و بما أني مبخبيش عليكوا حاجة أقلت اشاركوا الاسئلة دي يمكن حد ابن حلال يطلع عنده اجابه .. سؤال وجودي رقم 1: ليه الناس بتاكل و متتخنش ؟ واحدة زي حالاتي بتعمل دايت من 2003 ، بلاش طب نكلم جد شوية سؤال وجودي رقم 2: ليه الناس بتقول حاجات و هي قاصدها حاجات تانيه ؟ ايو يعني ايه الفكرة من كده ؟؟انا شخصيا واحدة الحياة عندي يا ابيض يا اسود مبفهمهاش غير كده !سؤال وجودي رقم 3: ليه في ناس بتكذب و معندهمش الشجاعة يعترفوا ؟ الكذب ده اسوء نوع من انواع عدم الاحترام و الوجع المعنوي ، بزعل اوي لما اعرف أين مشتهلتش اعرف الحقيقة.. سؤال وجودي رقم 4: ليه لما بنحب حد، الحد ده يطلع بيحبنا و خلاص ، ليه لازم الناس قلبها يوجعها و لازم بالهم يتعب؟ربنا ما يعلق قلبنا بحد عمره ما كان لينا. سؤال وجودي رقم 5: ليه الناس متحترمش بعد و كل واحد بيعامل التاني يتعامل بالصح و الغلط مش زي ما المجتمع بيفرض عليه ولا زي ما هو عايز يتعامل؟ سؤال وجودي رقم 6: ليه الناس بطلت تقدر الصراحة و بقيت تحب اللف و الدوران غير كده تبقي انت مش ناصح و متعجبش و لازم نحير بعض ، و ده كان قصده و ده كان قصده ، مالها الصراحه يعني مبقيتش موضه و لا ايه؟؟ سؤال وجودي رقم 7: ليه الدنيا مبتمشيش زي ما بنخططها لنفسنا؟ يجري ايه يعني لو الواحد حصاله كل حاجة هو نفسه فيها وقت ماهو عاوز (ده سؤال عارفة اجابته بس احب اطرحه برضه) سؤال وجودي رقم 8: ليه دايما لازم يا قلبنا يوجعنا و بالنا يتشغل بحاجات ملهاش لازمة و احنا عارفين ان ملهاش لازمة بس بنقول يمكن غباء ده و لا أمل و لا ناس فقرية غاوية نكد زي حالاتي؟ سؤال وجودي رقم 9: ليه لما حاجة بتتكسر مش بتتصلح و لو اتصلحت مبترجعش زي الاول؟ اه و الله ليه ؟؟ سؤال وجودي رقم 10: هي الناس الصادقة في مشاعرها ،الناس الكويسة يتاعت زمان، الناس اللي كانوا بيسؤلوا علي بعد من غير مصالح و يحبوا بعد من غير مصالح و يتمنوا لبعد الخير عشان هما ناس طيبين اوي يا خال ، الناس دي راحت فين ؟؟ #اه_يانا

Sad but True!

It is always sad to get the answer for the most unanswered question, did they change or that was them all the time and we were too blind to notice.. It is always sad to know that they didnt change, and that was them, to only find that we were searching for excuses to ignore who they are and love who they might become! It is always sad to know that the love we had for them was always for a person that didn't exist in the first place.. It is always sad to know that we were never worth the truth.. And what's even more sad that the only thing we thought was true turns to be fake.. It is always sad to know that we exerted effort and time with the wrong person.. And what's even more sad that the wrong people never understood the reason behind exerting our effort and time.. It is always sad how we spend time dwelling over and over again about the change that didn't happen or the love that didn't exist in the first place.. It is always sad how we keep thinking for excuses to deceive ourselves and to think that facts existed but we never noticed.. It is always sad how we spend time getting over the fact that facts never existed.. It is always sad to know that we did this to ourselves by our ownselves.. Yes,It is always sad but it is true!

Don't Judge !

Don’t Judge, for you never know the battles a person has gone through.. Don't Judge, for you will never understand that the hardest battles a person can go through are the battles in their head, and everyone has their own battles in their head.. Don't Judge, for that every person had a different battle than yours and how they deal with it don't necessarily define them! Don't judge because everyone had their own battle and that's enough for them ! Every person had a battle that made them lose something they love or afraid to lose something they love.. Only the strong people know that losing is not the end of world! Every person had a battle that made them change to another person, and the outcome depends on their strength to fight.. Some people were weak to fight and they became the person they never wanted to become.. Some people were strong to fight back and they became the people they aspired to become.. Every person had a battle that changed their perspective in life, the strong person will fight to understand that lesson, take the learning and move on with a satisfied and happy perspective while the weak person will settle for what they see and got! Every person had a battle with the wrong people, and they will always feel thankful for knowing they are strong enough with or without them to have passed the battle on their own. Every person had a battle with the "what ifs" and the "unanswered questions", and they will never end the battle until they decide they want to set a closure for them all. Every person had a battle with their dreams to achieve them, some were courageous enough to pursue them and some lost interest with the first hardship. Every person had a battle that drained their effort, some were wise enough to stand up, recharge and move on and some used the remaining energy in building walls that drained more energy, time and effort. Every person had a battle with their walls, they tried to break them, get over them or even make them higher and it all depends on their state of mind. Every person has passed in battles, and there are no easy battles but there are strong fighters.. so never judge a strong fighter,for they have gone through a lot ..

I break down and cry ..

That's a 10 years old piece that I wrote in 2003 ! When I remember the tears I’ve cried, And the memories that have died, I break down and cry… When I remember my heartache, And the love which was a great mistake, I break down and cry… When I remember your name, engraved in my heart, And my little wishes to never get apart, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was forgotten,And my memory turned to be rotten, I break down and cry… When I remember losing my happiness and smiles, And you paving the way to them with miles, I break down and cry… When I remember the ugly truth that was so clear, And my dreadful pain, which was sever, I break down and cry… When I remember I needed no gesture, no sigh And the truth did appear as the time elapsed by, I break down and cry… When I remember losing my innocence and my purity, And you never had the feeling of shame or guilty, I break down and cry… When I remember the fake, untrue feelings, And the words that totally lost their meanings, I break down and cry… When I remember the promises that have been promised, And the every good thing that you’ve missed, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was ready to compromise, And that you’ve been acting like a devil in disguise, I break down and cry… When I remember the way u wanted to hold me tight, And the way you acted, while am out of your sight, I break down and cry… When I remember the one, who was nice, And tried to melt my heart which was made of ice, I break down and cry… When I remember your touch, your look, And the first of everything you took, I break down and cry… When I remember that you were everything in my life, And your voice saying I am your all, your wife, I break down and cry… When I remember that all those things were deception, And you’ve been trying to deceive me in perfection, I break down and cry… When I remember the amends you used to make, And the love passion and feelings you used to fake, I break down and cry… When I remember the things you’ve done for my sake, And my heart which you tried in everyway to break, I break down and cry… When I remember the hurting words you’ve said, And making me feel like I’m dead, I break down and cry… When I remember your soul uniting with mine, And leaving in morning as the sun did shine, I break down and cry… When I remember all the bad things that you made, And the ugly memories which doesn't want to fade, I break down and cry… When I remember the weird reasons you used to tell, And trying in every possible way sending me to hell, I break down and cry… When I remember how fast u did let go of me, And the ugly evidence you’ve been helping me to see I break down and cry… When I remember your unfaithfulness and ingratitude, And your strange and elusive attitude, I break down and cry… When I remember that you’ve betrayed me in every way, And the sleepless nights you’ve helped me to stay, I break down and cry… When I remember that you’ve turned me into wreck, And made everything in my life do suck, I break down and cry… When I remember my agony and my depression, And the great, unbearable and unforgettable lesson, I break down and cry… When I remember how you did capture my heart, And that you were fooling and deceiving me from the start, I break down and cry… When I remember the memories you’ve buried and revive, And trying to make me never feel alive, I break down and cry… When I remember your love that doesn’t want to fade away, And you acting with me as if I am a prey, I break down and cry… When I remember the insincere feeling you had, And the endure treatment that turned me sad, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was ready to cope with all this, And thinking of your love as a great bliss, I break down and cry…. When I remember that you used to think of my love, And the things I’ve done for you as a gift from above, I break down and cry… When I remember that I was too possessive, And you were too submissive, I break down and cry… When I remember that to me u were priority one, And to you I was kind of a game just for fun, I break down and cry… When I remember that to me you were priceless, And to you I was something worthless, I break down and cry… When I remember how we used to stick together, And thought that our love is going to stay forever, I break down and cry… But now I discovered that no use for me to cry, After realizing that your love is an empty meaningless LIE

Perceptions..

They say that happiness is a state of mind, and that every bad thought we had, could have been replaced by a happy one instead. They say that everything we want to happen will only happen if we decide we want it enough. They also say we perceive anything the way we want to and this could be reflected on every good thing we thought it was bad, or every bad thing we thought it was good. And Every time we look at a light hair we have, we can think it’s a yellow one or a white one depending on our state of mind and how we want to see it. Every time we had a broken heart, we can think that death already came and got us or think it was the best experience depending on our state of mind and how we want to think about it. Every time a loved one leaves us, we can think it is time to learn that tomorrow might never come and we need to exert time and effort showing them how much we love them before they leave, or we can sink into depression and get stuck into the past and never move on. Every time we say the wrong things, we can think it is the end of world, set the whole "what if" scenario, or decide to learn from our mistakes and never look back again. Every time we decide to move on and fail, we can think we failed because we don’t have the energy to move on and we are waiting for someone to help us, or believe that we might need to put more effort into moving on so that we eventually can and really do. Every time we wait for someone to come a long and change all the things we want to change, we can really believe that this someone will help us change and sit still or we believe that we are strong enough to embrace the change we want to see and change it on our own and then we turn to be the change we want to see in the world! It all depends on our state of mind..May we always have a positive state of mind..

Get out of your comfort zone!

Every time we lose something we really loved or we really wanted, we think that the world has ended, meanwhile a new world has started with new meanings and definitions.. Meanings and definitions that we never thought they existed at the first place and it is only because we are getting out of our comfort zone! We will only get to grow up and discover who we are when we get out of our comfort zone and experience other things, bad things, interesting things, happy things, sad things and most importantly new things so that we can get a learning out of each and every thing! And when we get the learning, we have to be sure that this is the plan for us, even if we don't like it, even if we are not convinced, even if we are not happy about it, but definitely there is a wisdom that we cannot comprehend in the meantime and most importantly there is a reason for us to get out of our comfort zone and experience the other world. We need to move on. While moving on we will be impressed to discover the other side of us. A side that we never knew it existed. One way or another we will find strength in our weaknesses, happiness in our sadness, simplicity in our complications, fragility in our toughness, kindness in our wickedness and most importantly Love in our hatred. And all the faces we have been wearing in and out of our comfort zone, soon will melt with the real us and we will find a definition for who we are! We will no more suffer to wear a different mask every time we get out of our comfort zone, or even suffer from wearing our real masks and we shall always remind our hearts that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. I hope we don’t lose our identity in our journey to find our comfort zone! PS: there is one statement copied from Paulo Coelho